Quick Update~

Assalamualaikum wbt and good morning!

It's been a while for me not updating this blog as I feel that there's nothing interesting in my life to be write about. Yeah seriously, nothing.
For those who are my sincere followers, this is my apology: I'm sorry for ignoring this blog for the past 3 months (I guess, or more?) since I thought that doing nothing is too mainstream I caught myself into it..too much.. haha

Well, just a quick update..
My mid year holiday is almost towards the end and I am having this heavy-feeling of leaving my home to stay and study in the college. As y'all know, study makes me become really pissy because of this and that ugh~ and I don't like to be a pain in the neck for everyone. Pain in the neck?? Let's go with pain in the arse- it emphasizes more about my pissy attitude. LOL

Adding salt to my wound, I would say that this eid is sooo frustrating since grandma wasn't around. (sobbing)

But, in order to calm all my nerves, I am now taking violin lesson for adult beginner at MPT Music House since the last early July (I guess), as learning violin is a part of my wishlist which I must accomplish before I reach 30 (insyaAllah). My violin teacher, Simon, has been really helpful in making me understand music better- thanks to his motivation I still have interest in this thang. Or I might doing it half-cooked. Haha

I bought myself this Hofner violin last January. This is one of the cheapest student violins I could get which cost me like RM 300++.

Hermmmm...
Anddd...

to be on the shortest list, I am seeing someone now. (not like literally seeing I guess).
I really have no idea where this relationship is taking me..
I do not know how I would manage to be in this whole different kind of odd situation since I've caught myself really into this boy-girl thing. I would not say I am taken aback about how the family's (his) getting on.
Or how he treats me.
I am all full of complex puzzledness.
I am adapting yet someone in it needs to guide me with graciousness...not with enforcement....not with comparisons....not with the green eyed monster that he took outta me.
somebody needs to learn how to treat a woman right.
Or I'll stay in this fathomless pit of confusions, forever. 
May ALLAH guide us all...
InsyaAllah..

Disappointed

Have you ever feel disappointed with yourself and you believe that there's nothing good in you?
You think that no one in this world care about what you do because you don't care about them too.
People only care about the mistakes that you've done and their faces ignorantly keep on reminding you that you are nothing but worthless to them.
Have you ever try to reflect all the deeds and sins that you've committed but eventually you're stuck to a dead end?
You always wonder and ponder how this world and the people in it could become so evil but you might be ignorant about the cruel things that you have done to them too.
You think you've done your best to be a good man, but in the end, people still treat you like a scum.
Maybe they did not mean to treat you that way, but your feelings keep on telling yourself that they really do.
You feel disgusted with yourself and also the people around you.
But that abhorring feelings couldn't go away although you try to think there might be many more crueler people in this world other than you.
Are you cruel?
Maybe yes to some people, maybe not to some other people.
When you try to sleep, you commit the biggest lie.
You tell ALLAH that you've forgiven everyone who had done shits to you but when you wake up the next day, there's still hatred in your heart.
And when you bump into that person or any innocent strangers that are looking or behaving like them, you frown.
You frown and you get mad for no reasons.
You keep yourself quiet, and try not to believe that you have hatred in you.
Meaning you have the devil inside you.
But that feeling wouldn't just fade away and leave you in peace.
You cry and plead Allah to make all these stop, but God only helps those who help themselves.
So, please ALLAH..give courage in the heart of everyone of us who has this kind of feeling to let us help ourselves. Please ALLAH...bestowed upon us kind and forgiving hearts...keep us close to You...we're all just want to live in PEACE. 
Amin...

Trend Kahwin.

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Aku baru habis blogwalking and aku perasan ramai yang sekarang ni sibuk troll kat dalam blog and pesbok pasal kahwin..kahwin..kahwin..
Naik jealous nyampah aku pasal sibuk sume nak discuss bajet kahwin memahal and macam tak ukur baju di badan sendiri...
Aku bukan apa aku tengok orang sekarang ni over sangat bila pikir bab mejelis kahwin, mejelis akad nikah,,pre-shoot...post-shoot..khemah glow in da dark..candy booth la..photo booth la padahal orangnye keje biasa-biasa aje...bukannya anak datuk or tan sri or anak sultan pon...
Yang aku tak boleh tahan bila mak bapaknye pon sibuk nak jugak demand wang hantaran lebih-lebih kat yang lelakinya...hailaaa...

Kalau anak pompuan ko tu master or phd holder, pandai masak sedap-sedap, tau mengemas rumah, baik hati, muka top2 Miranda Kerr, takpelah nak demand lebih-lebih hokayy...

Ni dah la SPM pon tak lopaih, pemalas, pengotor, perangai tak senonoh...depan lelaki aje cover ayu padahal kat rumah stok-stok pakai kain batik senget dengan rambut kembang nak demand duit hantaran sampai 10K...
Ko mampeww...
Mana tak botak laki ko...buat mejelis gempak2..sampai hutang keliling pinggang...last2 duduk rumah sewa kat flat ajek...kenduri makan nasik beriyani gam...dah kahwin duk la makan bubur kosong hari-hari pasal duit gaji asyik kene potong aje bayau hutang kahwin...

Cut your coat according to your cloth la deyyy...

Pasal tu la kalau orang yang bijak and rasional, die buat kenduri biasa-biasa aje...biase tu bukanlah taraf-taraf orang kahwin macam kene tangkap basah..buat majlis makan-makan yang lauknye biasa-biasa...hantaran pon tak tinggi nak mampos...pastu takdelah sibuk nak meriah-meriah sangat siap nak buat candy booth, photo booth bagai..kalau candy booth tokley bla die g letak choki-choki aje kannn..orang lain buat ko pon nak buat jugak kaannn padahal letak choki-choki ajerr...citpodaa...

Lantaklah korang yang buat camtu bukan aku yang kahwin ponn..
Tapi tulah...sekadar renungan je lah ...sebab makin lama makin tak bley bla trend orang kahwin sekarang..

Baik arr duit yang 10K ko tu ko buat down payment kereta dulu ke... or kumpul sikit lagi untuk bayau duit down payment rumah yang selesa ke...pastu kahwin buat ringkas-ringkas aje...janji life lepas kahwin tu bahagia sebab semua basic necessities dah ada...takdela nak pening2 or gaduh laki bini pasal hal-hal macamni kann..
ni idok...kahwin nak kat hotel renaissance, lepas kahwin kene kejar dengan bank sebab tak bayau hutang....
no wonder la kawin baru sebulan dah sibuk nak bercerai-berai....

Pastu, lagi satu yang aku paling tak paham dengan trend kawin masyarakat mesia sekarang ni ialah trend baju pengantin diorang....
Aku tak pelik la bile dah tua sok anak-anak ko gelakkan ko sebab baju kahwin ko warne blue turquoise dengan hot pink...takpun warna orange dengan purple golap...dah la kontra pastu mekap pulak macam nak g circus kheennn...ko nak kahwin ke nak join Katy Perry buat show?
Ye..ye...aku tau sekarang memang trend pakai baju warna warni yang kontras tapi takyah la sampai kawin pon nak warne cenggitu sebab gambar kahwin kan orang akan simpan sampai bile-bile...kalau nak pilih warna pon biolah warne yang classy...warna-warna pastel macam white or cream or soft pink....evergreen je kan....timeless...

Rasa-rasa antara due warna tema pelamin kat atas yang mana kene gelak dengan budak-budak 20 tahun akan datang?

K ah malas nak tulis panjang-panjang lagi...
Tapi aku harap supaya masyarakat mesia ni silalah berpijak di bumi yang nyata k...

Quotes to be pondered:
“Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang-orang yang berlebih-lebihan.” (Surah al-A’raaf, 7: 31)

Our wedding was many years ago. The celebration continues to this day. --Gene Perret

Cau cin cau...