My Indecisiveness.

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Song: Life for Rent- Dido 

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Ten minutes ago, I was thinking of what exactly am I gonna write today.

And now, I decided to put some of my thoughts about life here. –Yeah- kinda boooring topic but I’d love to write about it anyway.

When I was in secondary school, I always thought that I already faced a lot of challenges in life that were enough to make me miserable every time I think about them, you know like challenges in competing, in friendship whatnot. But now I horrendously realize that they’re just the tip of the iceberg from the reality in life. Yeah- reality is kinda sucks but we have to face it anyway right?

Many people are able to face the reality in life- the reality that life’s not as easy as ABC. Nevertheless, there are also a bunch of people who weren’t able to pass through - the suicides and the alcoholics for instance. Not because they’re plain stupid for doing so- most of them are intelligent people, but due to their own indecisive manner to choose which way to go and also their lack of faith in God of course, they choose the very wrong path (the devil path) to end up all their life misery by destroying their own life.

I am not saying that I’m kinda losing hope here but hey- I already face a lot of diverging paths in life that I need to choose which one way to go- like in my study, my future profession, my relationship. I made my own decisions and I know that there can never be U-turns after I go on with any one of them. Yes it can happen if I want to turn back and go to the second path but it won’t erase the experiences that I’ve collected- good or bad- when I walked through my first path.  

Does this have something to do with my indecisive manner? I guess so since sometimes, when I first saw something that caught my intention, I would decide to take it up and grab any opportunities that were being offered so that I can experience it for real. But after some times, I found out that it’s not as interesting and as easy as my first thought about it. At the same time, I found another opportunity that really caught into me and decided to leave my misery of the thing I already had by throwing it away and taking up the other interest. Same thing goes when I discover that it’s not as easy as I thought and decided to leave it too. And the list goes on and on and I only finish all of them halfway. What is really going to happen to me in the end? I’ll definitely end up as a loser who got an unsteady life- a scumbag!

So now, I decided to face everything- I mean it- EVERYTHING that ALLAH wants me to experience because I made my decision that it’s time to face the challenges. Those challenges are just a temporal issue that I need to get over with-happy or not- because I know that in the end, I’ll definitely going to be wallow in victory and permanent happiness. Whether it’s going to be as successful as I plan or not so successful, I would never know, but at least I don’t run away from it. I don’t care what would ever happen to me in the end because I just know that ALLAH only grants those who have triumph and try their very best to succeed.

I put my faith in ALLAH and here, I rest my case-

I just need to try harder and never give up hope to be successful. It’s not that I really aim to be number One- Hey what’s wrong with number 2, 3 or probably number 10? Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever..Life is beautiful indeed ! :)